I realized that I really love Papi for whatever reason it may be. I am truly happy when I am with him. He is kind, powerful, well connected, rich and generous. Really generous.
Yes, I am used to my old life where everything was handed over to me on a silver plate. Where work was just a 'hobby' and needn't be taken seriously. Where a credit limit in your card was unheard of. He gives me everything that I lost. And then some.
It's funny how one can love someone even more as time passes by. I dunno if its (non ending) learning to love the person or maybe just realizing how much of a great person one is.
I love him but I'm just fucking horny as hell still.
*haha I found a draft of an entry last year :
'I am actually sick of Papi's whining already. I want it quits. I just don't know how. I have known him for more than 2 years already and…'
What a difference from how I feel and think now! haha!