Sunday, August 12, 2012

Guilty as Charged.

Papi's wife read my text and it was a bunch of icons with kisses and asking how he was.  Although he changed my name to a girl's name, she obviously got devastated and went ballistic.  She was very physical and was shouting at him.  She hit him with a golf club and scratched his face with her nails.  Their kids heard that they were fighting and they were crying.

I cannot put into words how I am exactly feeling now.  So much emotions and thoughts going through my head.

I am feeling so guilty.  Not just because she read my text but guilty because I am the third party.

Is all this worth it?

I know he needs me specially at this time and the last thing I want to happen is that they separate or get a divorce - I am just drowning with guilt.

I am a home wrecker.

Friday, August 3, 2012

Who am I?

I was the kid that the guidance counselor always called for recess cause she thought I was the cutest.

I got invited to all the soirees and 'surprisingly' was always in the closet (no pun intended) for 7 minutes in heaven.

I was the HS prom king.

I was the guy you secretly wanted to befriend in college cause I drove the nicest cars in school with the pop kids in tow.

I am the poor little rich kid who didn't know what to do when daddy used up my trust fund.

I am the luckiest boytoy who never knew what being poor means.

I am the guy who you love to hate.