Papi's wife read my text and it was a bunch of icons with kisses and asking how he was. Although he changed my name to a girl's name, she obviously got devastated and went ballistic. She was very physical and was shouting at him. She hit him with a golf club and scratched his face with her nails. Their kids heard that they were fighting and they were crying.
I cannot put into words how I am exactly feeling now. So much emotions and thoughts going through my head.
I am feeling so guilty. Not just because she read my text but guilty because I am the third party.
Is all this worth it?
I know he needs me specially at this time and the last thing I want to happen is that they separate or get a divorce - I am just drowning with guilt.
I am a home wrecker.
Friday, August 3, 2012
I got invited to all the soirees and 'surprisingly' was always in the closet (no pun intended) for 7 minutes in heaven.
I was the HS prom king.
I was the guy you secretly wanted to befriend in college cause I drove the nicest cars in school with the pop kids in tow.
I am the poor little rich kid who didn't know what to do when daddy used up my trust fund.
I am the luckiest boytoy who never knew what being poor means.
I am the guy who you love to hate.