Sunday, September 5, 2010
I had a discussion with some friends and I was saying that it's so hard to be gay. Not that I haven't come to terms about my sexuality but do we have a choice to be like this? Is it in our DNA that we like guys? Is there a choice for us not to be gay? I am actually afraid of being old and lonely. I guess this is what most gay people feel or at least have come across at one point or the other.
Obviously its going to be a challenge to get married and remain faithful and not to stray but isn't it just the same with straight guys? I mean the temptation is there for them to fool around with other girls. Ain't it just the same? It's always an effort to remain faithful be it that if you're in a hetero or homo relationship.
Is there a difference between being straight and faithful vs being gay in a straight relationship and be faithful too?
Just a thought...
GAWD, I just had to get out of the house now. I think I am going crazy (I'm gay, I can be OA).
I feel bad, really.
Sad that I had to let go of someone who doesn't value me. Someone who was leading me on.
Sad that I don't see the purpose of my life. Yet. I work my ass off then what? Maybe because this stems from the fact that I didn't have to work before. Lol.
I think I'm gunna be ok. I just had to get out of the house.
Or maybe I just need more sex.