I Hate J

Can i just say? I hate that little fugly twerp! I hate Li'l J!!! She's such a slut and she's so ugly! Go Serena! Hehe

Yes I watch Gossip Girl and I love it! haha

Xoxo

Hot!!!

I'm so proud of myself. Me living without central AC. God it is so HOT! I can't even begin to imagine how people can sleep without AC in the Philippines.

Temp is Rising

Finally someone as hot as the temp outside! I met up with Sean a couple of weeks back in Alabang. We just chit chatted over coffee- he was born in Manila but moved to the Netherlands when he was a kid. Very pinoy moreno looking, cute angelic face with a body of the devil! I actually felt scrawny beside him. I was an inch or 2 taller than him but his arms were 1 and a half times bigger than mine! Typical conversation- what he does here for a living and that his bf is following here for a vacation in the next month or so from back home. No one instigated anything so I just thought ok, this is just a meet up; he has a bf and so be it.

Fast forward to last Sunday, I text him how his weekend was and he replied saying it was pretty boring and he was just at home. I said why not we go out and have coffee or something. He said ok and maybe we can just hangout at his place. I honestly didn’t think of sexy time hehe as I thought he was part of the 1 out of 1,000,000,000 who probably didn’t like me. We hungout in his room, it was just so hot outside and even with the AC in full blast it was a bit warm. He said he’ll just shower for a second and when he came back he was just in shorts without his shirt on and upon seeing him I almost lwt out a screech. He was just so so hot. I take off mine too and we just lay beside each other in bed and just chit chatted the time away. I didn’t wanna make a move cause for one he had a bf and he never gave me any signs or insinuated anything- until he said that he met up with someone 2 weeks ago and they did it, he also said he thinks he needs to trim already. Ok, that’s my cue- I think I don’t need anymore subtle hints. I turn over to him and kissed him, he pushed me back and looks at me in the eye and starts kissing me back. For a split second I thought it was an oops moment. I start giving him the boytoy full service package- I licked his whole body and he started squirming with ecstasy. I bring his legs up and started licking his man hole. Oh yes he likes it. He grabs my head and sits on my face while sucking me. Sean knew what he likes and wanted. He uses the whole bed- moves from one corner to the other like a boxer. We ended with him on his back and I on my side- sucking each other from time to time while we jack off and we both cum on his 6-pack abs.

I think it was just sex- pure sex cause after showering; we were just talking again like nothing happened. Cool. I mean that’s hot.

Ugly Boys

Seriously, sometimes, the ugly guys get lucky too. Marc invited me to his place cause he invited this guy who according to him, looked like a construction worker with an 8-inch cock. I was bored (ok, and horny too) and Marc assured me that the guy looks good. I go over to Marc’s and I see the guy. Damn, he is really ugly. Ok, I might be exaggerating a bit but he is ugly. I was at the edge of the bed then Marc started sucking him off. OMG- he was fucking big. I just got too curious and I strip naked and shoved his face to my cock while I jacked him off. He wanted to kiss but- hell no! I don’t want his face anywhere near mine. I made him go on all fours like an animal and shoved my cock down his throat. I made him lay on his back and started jacking him off again while he and Marc were sucking me. When he was ready to cum I aimed my cock to his mouth and we both came at the same time. Him on his navel while me, well he enjoyed my man-juice down to the last drop. Marc was being a voyeur and came as soon as we were done.

I am beginning to sound like a size queen in my stories huh? Haha damn!

Definition of a FUBU Please?

What does a FUBU really mean? Does it mean that you guys are exclusive with each other minus the emotional baggage of being in a relationship? Or does it mean that you guys are just, well, fucking? There is this guy who brings it to the next level. He even calls me ‘Buddy’. Buddy short for Fuck Buddy.

M: Hey buddy! How was your weekend?
I: Pretty lame, didn’t get laid.
M: Oh, are you looking for another guy? Just tell me, its ok.
I: As a matter of fact, yes and why would it matter if I am?
M: I thought we were fuck buds.
I: Yes, we do have sex but are you assuming that we are exclusive to each other? Aren’t you supposed to be involved with someone even?
M: Well, yeah but I thought that would mean exclusivity…
I: What’s the point of being FUBU’s then? Might as well be in a relationship including the emotional baggage and drama…
M: Well I thought you said you don’t want a relationship? I’m sorry but I’m dating someone exclusively already…

(I scroll up my window, searching if I said something that might be mis-interpreted as – I love you and I want you, please be mine and only mine)
I: Yes, I don’t want a relationship with you.

Next Time

After numerous exchanges of I love you’s and I miss you’s with Moses, in the past few weeks, I have decided to put an end to it- an end to the insane, roller coaster emotional craziness that has been going on between us. I cannot even define what we have- are we even friends to begin with? He doesn’t even know my fucking name and he says he loves me. What’s in a name? Am I being too trivial? Is it my fault if I want the guy who tells me he loves me to match our names with the ‘FLAMES’ game? And to cheat by using different spellings or using nick names when the results derive ENEMIES or FRIENDS? Haha! Am I just a constant trick? Why does he need to tell me he loves me if he just wants my cock? Quit that bullshit and just tell me straight out- ‘Please be there when my man pussy is itchy cause I think you fuck great!’ I would appreciate that more and will gladly oblige. I’m a boytoy for crying out loud.

I am so glad I have told him to fuck off. In a much more diplomatic manner, of course. With the usual why’s and then the answers but minus the drama, I have finally said-

‘Let’s just hang out sometime next time.’

I Love Dessert!

So I had a conversation with Alain.




Alain: all you think about is ‘dessert’!

Icarus: well, what else is there to think about? What do you have in mind?

Alain: I want us to have dinner, talk, movie- get to know each other.

Icarus: Oh.

My Life April 2010

I feel that my life is at the point where I am on a bridge walking towards my destination. Albeit a golden bridge, if I may say, considering my current condition. This journey has its highs and lows, which I can only hope that the bridge is not too long. I am walking blindly but with firm steps towards the end until I can walk on solid ground again- and stand on my own two feet (in my Gucci loafers).